Heo Young Saeng - Tears..



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I was contemplating how to post this one, even before Criselda mentioned it....cos I couldn't help being very down after reading this...it's really touching...and Young Saeng must have walked down memory lane...I wonder what he was thinking that led to this post. I know many of you have read this in Liezle's blog and in ODE's blog. ODE has done a wonderful translation again, which I'll put here :


Source : ss501.dspenter.com.
Heo Young Saeng's post on 17th July 5:56:32 PM, KST.
Translation by ODE at ss501ode.blogspot.com


2007.1.14..
Before we went onto stage...

"Hyung~ When I listen to Wings of the World, it's like talking about us..;;"
"Really..? Me too, I feel sad for no practical reasons.."
"That's why.. Seems like listening to that song will make you cry..
Especially the bridge part that hyung you sing..."


Lastly.. The encore song..

"Rest to get power if you must.. Lay down your tired wings for the moment...
Just smile... do you see it...
That world shining just like a small candlelight..."


"(I) Remember... We..... will fly... to the sky.... won't we......
For.. the.. sake.. of.. our.. dreams.. and.. for.. freedom.. of.. this.. world............."


I felt it.. The reason why that friend was crying...
No one noticed it.. Only me...
Before standing onto stage, the words we said...
Flashed past my mind at that split moment...
And...

"We can do it... Always... Dreaming.......... of our dream..................."

I don't know why too... Tears just trickled out the eyes ceaselessly....
The lyrics of song... actually had a different meaning
than those tears....

"A smile with happiness.... A place filled with it.........
We... can... make... that... happen... can't we......."



We as singers.. we're only expected of putting up an
amazing stage.. and.. displaying our handsome sides...
But in reality, it didn't work like that...
There were so many limitations to what we wanted to do...


Though we sing in the song, we are flying to the skies... but
the us in reality, we're unable to do that...
Though we sing in the song, we can do it... but
the us in reality, we're unable to do that...
To the people listening to our song.. To the people watching our stage...
I really can't lift my head... because I feel so sorry in my heart...
Ended up only tears were seen...


The meaning behind those tears flowed at that time ... probably.. until now this moment...
If any one would have known,
the people who could have possibly known...
will only be the both of us who shed and saw...


3 and a half years have passed by... 2007 January 14...
While singing the last song...to the meaning of those tears that flowed...


Right until the end, grabbing onto the mike so tightly.. and tears trickling by..
The reason why we weren't moving...


Because I wanted to tell everyone..
The mike will be the item I'll spend my eternal lifetime with..
I will be singing until I die... and I was letting this be known...
And.. there was this one sentence I wanted to say for sure..
But tears just kept flowing... It just couldn't come out of my mouth...

The meaning to those tears at that time....


'It was us looking at the imperfect stage ourselves... I'm sorry...
And our imperfect stage.. because you enjoyed it, I'm thankful...'



[ODE : Stage mentioned -- Wings of the World , "Live in Japan 2007"]



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Dear Otter Prince, rest to get power if you must...
lay down your tired wings for the moment...



Young Saeng is a quiet and deep thinking person, his words reflect this. He must have been thinking a lot on the situation SS501 is in , about all the uncertainties of the future. I wish I could wipe his tears and comfort him....we all do. We will support SS501 regardless the company they [or each member] are in ... 

"Imperfect stage...."...is he referring to all the things SS501 has not been able to do or to finish under DSP ? ...all their dreams...of " flying to the sky ". Oh ! How I wish DSP had made greater efforts, been more diligent in promoting them , had been more wise at the time of Leader's "Bday party case" and had given them a chance to produce more than one full album ......so maybe...just maybe, had been able to keep them together.

I'm just talking with out knowing about any of the real facts concerning " the reason they are not moving ", the reason of Leader's move to Keyeast, the reason why the other four members have not made decisions yet.....just really worried about the unity of SS501, as all TS all over are....lets be patient to wait for updates on them....lets show our love and support to Young Saeng and all five members of SS501, we Triple S are still here for SS501...we'll be Triple S in our hearts for always.


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Photo credits as labeled, thank you so much !


Comments

pinkymomo said…
so coincident, i just watched the concert yesterday - Live in Japan 2007....
pinkymomo said…
btw, can you please tell me what is Leader's "Bday party case"?
myoce said…
Hi pinkymomo...

I saw Young Saeng really burst into tears on his bro's shoulder at SS501 concert while singing this song.

Abut the case...it's hard to explain, here you can read all about it at these links...


http://dazedbylife.blogspot.com/2010/01/kim-hyun-joong-is-hurting.html


http://dazedbylife.blogspot.com/2010/01/kim-hyun-joong-with-you-all-way.html


http://dazedbylife.blogspot.com/2010/01/kim-hyun-joong-tells-truth.html


The last link is the most complete.

[maybe you'll find that you're aware of it already ??].
pinkymomo said…
Ah ya…the birthday case….. I heard it before.
When I learn about the incident, I was thinking why he has such a dreadful agency!
Leader must be very disappointed on this case.
Observing by his passed interviews, he is very respecting him, right?

I’m new fans of leader and SS501.
I love to come to your blog and read your thoughts.
Love your new design of your blog ^^

“Live in Japan 2007”
I just bought the DVD couple days ago and I have seen the concert finally.
KJ & YS sobbed when they performed “Wings of the World” at the end of the concert.
Too bad the dvd doesn’t have Eng/Chinese subbing. It only consists of Korean & Japanese subbing. My Japanese is not that good so I can’t fully understand why they were crying….. when YS explained it.
myoce said…
Arrgghh...I wrote a long reply and it disappeared !

I thought you'd heard of the case, pinkymomo !
Thank you for liking my blog and reading my thoughts.
I love making designs on BYJ,KHJ and SS501 for my blog.

You are right, Leader respects his elders very much,
which is probably the reason he couldn't refuse when taken to the party.

I don't have that dvd, it's so hard to get SS501 stuff here.
So watched it in YT^^
And me only understand English :(

Me wishing real hard that SS501 will be able to stay together somehow !!

So nice talking with you, pinkymomo..only another TS would understand how I feel right now.
pinkymomo said…
Leader did sacrifice a lot for DSP indeed.
However, DSP seems didn’t appreciate him but hurt him so much.
As you said, the incident could be one of the reasons he leave for KE…….
5years debut without 2nd full album, it’s unreasonable.
Even HyungJoon also “yelled out” his resentful during x-concert.
About x-concert, I’ve watched it for few times.
I feel heartache for them, especially leader.
I can see ….. He keeps drinking plenty of water, because he tried to hold back all his tears.
Standing still and not dare to look at his brothers because he afraid of tearing.
*sob sob*

Where are you from?
I’m from Penang, Malaysia.
Same to you, I hardly can find SS501’s stuff here.
Last week, I went down to Kuala Lumpur to find it and very lucky I found 2 set of dvds.
Live in Japan 2007 and Heart To Heart. Both were featuring their promotion tour in Japan.
Without consideration, I just bought it secretly w/o telling my hubby. Haha
After that, I only found out that it has no Eng/Chinese subbing 
The dvd consists of their interview after the concert.
YS did explain why he cried at the concert.
Too bad, I cannot understand well what he had said.
Re his recent post at webby, made me feel depressed.
What happen to them exactly?
DSP is yet to announce anything.

It’s nice to talk with you too because I have nobody to share out my feelings.
Hope that you won’t feel that I’m bothering you.
myoce said…
Oh, I feel the same as you about Hyun Joong...and I thought he was very near to tears at the X concert. He and Young Saeng was just barely holding it in...I think KHJ didn't look to much in PJM's direction for fear of bursting into tears there and then.

JM was the most emotional of the 5....as always...he always shows more emotion and animation towards fans...I'm sure the situation really overwhelmed him...and Kyu and Baby...imagine what must have been going through their mind... already aware of Hyun Joong's decision..

Me hoping and praying for them...all members...

I'm, near you ^^
from west Java, Indonesia ...
I have to go to Jakarta to search for SS501 stuff...sob sob...

Me praying extra hard for Saengie...
myoce said…
I meant "then and there" ohh...
Ami said…
Reading this, I cried. I've read the translation b4.. but this one made more sense to me. Thank you for re-posting it here.. <3

Thinking about them being scattered in different corners of the earth, while watching their previous shows on youtube that gave us glimpses of their intimate hostel life, feels painful to me. I wish I were there supporting them from the start.

Here's wishing each of them success and happiness always~
myoce said…
Hi Ami,

We have the same thoughts...
I feel it's so much of a waste if they do disband, but I can't blame Leader...

All we can do is wish them the best.

Thank you, Ami.

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